I used to go to Horseplay Equestrian then I graduated. When I went there it was because of my stress and anxiety. Let me back up a bit. Ever since I was little I have been a Christian. I always thought I was a good or good enough Christian until I hit middle school. All of my friends left me, they all got popular and well I did not. I felt sort of alone and was looking for a friend. I then became friends with someone who I thought was a good Christian friend. She was the opposite. She had such a bad influence on me. I kept being her friend because I thought she was the only friend I could make. She drifted me away from God. I still believed in him but I was not as committed to the relationship. Once I realized this I tried to get her to become a Christian. No matter what, she wasn’t into it. Once again I wasn’t as committed because it was hard to talk about God if my friend thought it wasn’t that important to talk about. In this process my uncle touched me in a way he should not touch his niece. I told my mom in time and we stopped talking to them. Another reason being my grandma took his side and was mean to my mom after my grandpa passed. Sorry for going out of order but before that my half-sister moved back in. Her dad isn’t a very good one, and at the time she had no home and was doing drugs, my mom and dad told her she could stay if she didn’t do drugs in the house. She shared a room with my younger sister. One day I walked in and she was making cigarettes in my sister’s bed. At this time my life was going downhill. To make things even better my friend (same one I was talking about before) was spreading fake rumors about me. I noticed people started looking at me different. People thought I was like her, I was the opposite.
During all of this I was going to Horse Therapy. Let me tell you now, this made things thirty times better. I could be in the worst mood but leave there with the biggest smile on my face. I remember a lot and everything I did there always helped me, but it has made an even bigger impact on my life now. I did a lot but I’ll share the three things that I will never forget, (I will never forget any of it but these things will always effect how I look at things, and do things.) Mrs. Tami told me to collect all of my newspaper in my house for a week. She had me carry it the whole lesson (let me tell you it was not light). While I carried it I had to lead the horse I was working with. I walked over some logs and started to fall. Cool (the horse I worked with) started falling too. Behind her were some kittens who started to fall also. From that I learned that we should be good leaders like God. You can gain more followers, but when you slip up they will too. That same day we took all the newspaper to a giant dumpster. Every piece of paper was a sin or something that was bad in my life or something I worried about. Putting it in the dumpster meant I was giving it to God. And that if I wanted that horrible weight back on my shoulders I’d have to go dumpster diving and no one wants to do that. So I handed all of my problems to the Lord for him to take care of. Another really important thing is when I painted a horse. I started with red and that represented everything bad in my life and my sins. But then I painted with other colors over them, those colors represented everything good and everything that God has blessed me with. When I was done you couldn't’ even see the red. That just shows how amazing our God is. No matter how bad the sin, God is greater. Last but not least, I trained Cool. Before she came to Horseplay she got abused. She was so frightened, even if you were waving to someone she would be scared. I had to gain Cool’s trust. This took a very long time. I would first bring her into the round pen and make her trot and then canter. After that I would desensitize her. When that was done I would put a bucket in the middle of the pen and let her run around the pen. I waited for her to come to me, to trust me. She would run in circles stressing and worrying, instead of just coming to me and trusting me. It’s like this: God is always sitting on that bucket. I would get caught up in everything that was going bad. I forgot all I had to do was go to God. God is always there, always waiting for you to trust him and turn all your worries to him.
Everything that I did at Horseplay helped me right away. And it is still helping me today. Now I don't think I can remember a recent day where there was not a smile on my face. I went from zero friends to one friend who spread bad, untrue rumors about me, to Realizing God was my friend. He was my only friend but sometimes one is all you need. After some time I prayed I would find an amazing Christian friend. God heard me. My used to be friend moved away, and it took time but now I have five friends. They are all amazing Christians who have my back at any time. And we just started a bible study at my school during lunch. The horse I worked with, Cool, went from being afraid of everything, to coming straight to me when I went into the pasture, and letting a four year old lead her on a rope. Going to Horseplay completely turned my life around, and I am so blessed. If I didn't go to Horseplay well, I can’t even imagine what life would be like. All I know is that it would not be as amazing as it is now. Now my relationship with God is even stronger than ever.